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I'm taking a Nutrition for Sports and Fitness class. I'm not really sure what I've gotten myself into. I went and rented my book by giving them one arm and leg. I started to read. BORING! Seriously why don't they make books more interesting?!

I went to the gym today knowing fully that I may not make it through my work out because I just had not been feeling well. I should have listened to my body, but it had been so long since I had been there I was craving a good leg work out. I should know better! I know that when I do legs and/or abs I sometimes have flare ups. I also know that I would be starting my period this week but because of my continuous birth control I don't have my period, but I still have everything that comes with it. I was pretty irritated by the fact that everyone was staring at me as I limped around and tried to find a spot to be alone. What a joke!  It's a gym, you aren't even in the bathroom alone.

One thing that I have noticed lately is that when I sit directly upright, like sitting in a chair or on the ground, my side becomes a little irritated. It's kind of strange. I'm not really sure why it's like that.

I have been doing some research and I stumbled across a supplement that I would like to talk to my doctor about taking. The main ingredient is Nattokinase along with some strong anti oxidants. The sup is called Fibrovan. If the results are negative from this test next week I am going to talk to him about this. Also I will be REFUSING LUPRON! For those out there who are considering it... do your research. A group of woman is suing the makers of Lupron. I do not want to be involved with that drug or that company. I like looking for more natural ways of healing. I know that may make me sound like a hippie, but SERIOUSLY... IT'S MY BODY! I have to live with this body for ALLLLLLL of my life. If I screw it up by taking stupid drugs like Lupron I will regret it for... FOREVER!

I walked into the grocery store this evening because I wanted potatoes. Any for of potato. What did I come home with? PF Changs take home meals and stuff to make red velvet cupcakes. Why do I always go to the store when my tummy is growling. I know it never ends with just one thing.

I will be going back to work tomorrow. I'm not really sure how I feel about that to be honest. I feel like I need more time off. I'm not ready to be there with people. I'm not ready to go back to the real world where I fake it 'til I make it. Oh well. I guess I have to make money somehow.