Day 15- My rants about the gym.

Some people say that when you are stressed you are to go to the gym and let it all out on a rack of weights or run it off on the treadmill, well apparently those people don't go to my gym and have always been in perfect shape and they must be beautiful. So maybe lately I've been stressed out, but hey that's all apart of being an adult. I was kind of excited to go to the gym today, I got there and it was like ants on a piece of sugary candy. (hey I want a piece of sugary candy. Resist the urge!!!!) There were swarms of people covering each machine. Instantly my blood pressure went up a few point. I received a pep talk from Jamie of some ideas of which machines to do and went straight to work. In the next 10-15 min I realized that half of these "ants" aren't here to transform themselves or make themselves better. They are here because this is their social hour. This is an adult play ground where you can talk and talk. Well if you want to talk, how about you get off the flipping machine I want to use, but wait you are to busy talking to realize I'm standing there waiting! I finished my back routine and went to biceps. I walked over did a set on some machine. I don't even know what it was called, all I know is I'm to short for it so I have to sit on my legs. After, I went and grabbed some dumbells, I'm not very strong, so I started out with 10 lbs each hand. As I started, some stupid college aged boy walks over stands DIRECTLY in front of me in the mirror so I could no longer watch my form. I said loudly with no regrets, "Are you kidding me right now!" I moved over to the side and continued. He finished his set and walked off. So I put my 10's back and waited a moment to rest. As I was to grab some 15's some other IDIOT walked directly in front of me and took them. It was the last pair. Maybe I could have waited patiently, but I was done caring at that point. I walked off. I talked to Jamie and went back to work on some other machines. When I was done I realized that if you don't look a certain way, lift a certain amount, and weigh a certain amount people at the gym look at you like "why are you even here?" I swear I can hear it seaping out of their airheads. Think to yourself for a moment... Have you ever thought or heard someone say, "Oh they are fat why do they even bother coming to the gym?" Well you know what? Let me just tell you that it's good they are there! They are putting forth some kind of effort into trying to make themselves better! They probably quit trying because all the rude people in the gym make them feel unwanted. So instead of the gym being a place to transform yourself and be better, it becomes a place of riducule and hurt. I'm not saying I'm fat, nor am I saying I'm not pretty, but I am saying that because I don't look like a "bodybuilder's girlfriend" I am disrespected at the gym.
Obviously I have something going on since if I wear semi-tight pants every man in the gym goes out of their way to stare at me! LISTEN TO ME... I. DO. NOT. LIKE. IT!!!!! I'm not a piece of meat. Just let me do my work out and get out. Who knows maybe they aren't looking at me like I'm a piece of meat but rather a marshmellow because I don't fit the "gym" mold. Who knew that the gym was playground for adults and that you can still be bullied as adults!

In diet news... I thought it would be SUPER easy to drop the weight once I stopped eating things with sugar and high carbs. No. No it's not. I guess I should step up my cardio to make sure I meet my Tuesday's goal. I hope I have a secret fan club out there cheering me on.

I do like the gym. Only on weekends and late at night when no one is there.

End of week 2. Starting week 3.

Well last week was rough... I got busy with work so I didn't get to post every day which I had wanted to. Let me tell you about last week!

Work was INSANE! I'm talking we saw a record number of kids for our emergency room every single day I worked. Apparently it's the "RSV" season as we call it. Because of the business of the season we rarely get to eat in the cafeteria (not like it's really that healthy, but it's better than nothing.) Some of the staff, usually the doctors and once a nurse, buys pizza on busy days. So last week I ate pizza 2 or 3 times... oh and once I left early for work and picked up some dairy queen. (Jamie, I hope you don't read this!) I've also had a few smoothies (2) and probably way more carbs than I should have. After the busy work week I went to see my family because my sister had her baby <3 I ate "Casa Manana" (a bean burro enchilada style.) I also had french toast, homemade pizza and a rootbeer float.

Some how... I managed to lose 4 pounds. It might be because I've really stepped it up at the gym. I've been doing more cardio, which I'm not fond of, and I've been lifting heavy.

GYM STORY-
Yesterday at the gym I was lifting a heavy set for a chest work out. I was already having a bad day and didn't really want to be at the gym, but I went. Jamie was spotting me and he knows everyone at the gym. Well as I'm doing my last set (heaviest) I may have grunted a few times. Some guy started grunting along with me. I let the weights down and lunged for him. It was a good thing Jamie was there because this guy would have been a goner! I was so embarrassed that someone was making fun of me I ran out of the gym. 15 min later I came back and told Jamie I hate the gym and I never want to come back because I'm so embarrassed. He explained the guy was playing with me and teasing me. I didn't care. It was disrespectful because I didn't even know the guy. I told him to take me home or to let me have the keys. He just kept saying are you serious. I then started to cry again and ran into the bathroom. I sat in the steam room for another 15 min. Then some girl came in there and was texting. I was annoyed by that so I left. I went out of the bathroom and the guy came up and appologized. I told him it was okay but I didn't like it because it made me feel awkward and embarrassed. I told him I didn't want to come back to the gym. He felt really bad and kept saying sorry. In the end I asked him his name and we called it "cool." His name is Brian. I did kind of felt bad later for making a big deal out of nothing, but I have a complex about the gym and was so embarrassed that people were paying attention to me!

Today at the gym was better.. I pushed myself that is for sure! I'm not sure if I will be able to walk in the morning!!!!

Hopefully next Tuesday I will be down to 127, but that means I need to get serious about this eating right stuff!

Day 2

I'm super exhausted today. I didn't eat like I should have. I ate a half a piece of chicken some skittles a protein shake and some roast that I made. Not a good start to this body transformation!!! I did lift today with Jamie but everyone and their mother was at the gym because it's a new year so everyone wants to get slim and sexy!!! After I lifted I swam. That was a nice touch to the day! I'm going to bed now. I need to figure out what I'm going to do tomorrow because I work tomorrow. Sigh. Work. Gotta love it.

Body Transformation DAY 1

Okay so I'm on this diet... well I don't want to call it a diet... I'm doing this "BODY TRANSFORMATION" and I figured I should blog about it because it might be pretty comical for you people reading this (Emily that's you!)

So Jamie found this 12 week body transformation thing where you could win a bunch of money at the end and he said I should do it. I figured why not....

Today is day one... I woke up... I snuck and ate left over sour skittles from the airport last night. My sister gave me a glass jar with cookie mix inside and I took a nap cuddled up to it because I wanted to make it and it them so bad. Later I did go to the gym and did the eliptical for a good 30 min. I thought I was going to have a heart attack, but you know whatever! I then came home and ate. I decided to go back to the gym and do yoga. Which I have fallen in love with. Yoga is my safe zone. You may look like a complete idiot and some of these names ie DOWNWARD DOG?! like who comes up with these?! But you know it seems to relieve my stress... at least in my mind it does. While I was doing one of the poses I realized... How does the teacher not laugh right now? We look like idiots. I started to giggle which made my bum that was sticking up in the air start to bounce around. Oh man it was a mess. I finished out yoga and feel great.

Well this concludes day one so far... this is bound to become quite comical.

PS I'm hungry!