Shoes, Recipes, and Running

I told myself I wasn't going to post until I had a chance to take a picture of my cute new wedges, but I am just tooooooooooooooo excited!!!!

Let me tell you about my new summer wedges... They are white and have sequins lace and just plain white on them. I can not do justice to their beauty! Love at first SIGHT!!!

It's been 2 weeks now that I have been trying REALLY REALLY hard to eat gluten free. I've been all kinds of google searches on recipes and ideas. I have talked to people I know that are gluten free for their ideas as well. I knew some ideas of what I could eat, but I'm not a bunny so for me to eat my weight in veggies didn't sound appealing. I soon learned two things, this is one of the hardest things EVER! and Wait this is a little easier than I thought!

When I first went to the store I had Jamie by my side. We just went to the Bashas that was on the corner. I almost cried the entire time and ended up purchasing corn tortillas, blue corn chips, and potatoes. So that is basically what I've been eating along with rice that I had at my house.

One morning, I kid you not, I had no idea what to eat so I ate brown rice with cinnamon. It wasn't too bad actually.

The hardest thing is reading the label on EVERYTHING!!!! The terryaki sauce I was using had wheat in it so I can no longer use that.
Another hard thing is taking the time to prepare meals. Working nights is not easy when it comes to making lifestyle changes.

Just a little while ago I found this blog with all kinds of recipes that are gluten free. I am excited to try them. I have given up dairy and that means my favorite food, ice cream, is now a no go. I found this recipe for strawberry chocolate chip sherbet! I'm super excited to try it out!

I also found a recipe for lime chicken tacos. Sounds DELISH!

I know that living gluten free may sound completely crazy, okay it is, but gluten isn't actually all that healthy. Gluten or wheat is used in things like wall paper glue... SERIOUSLY! It's because it's a sticky substance hence why it's used for GLUE!Now that you know it is sticky and used for glue maybe it will be easier to understand what is going on in many MANY people's tummy's. The gluten is sticking to bowels and who knows what else. This is why I have chosen to cut it out of my diet.
It was suggested to me to cut out many foods and after 2 months maybe add one thing back at a time to see if certain foods create more pain for me. I figured I may as well try!

I know you all are DYING to know how I'm doing with my running routine. Well I can do a lot better. Last Monday I went to the gym with my partner in crime and took his advice to lift first then to do my run. I DIED!!! Seriously let me tell you I could barely walk much less run! Jamie was telling me on the way to the gym that I should lift as hard as I can and so that's exactly what I did, but man oh man I'm still paying for that day at the gym.

As of today 17 more days until the run!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

One more thing... the site I found the recipes is http://glutenfreegoddess.blogspot.com/ GO THERE!!!!

A Punch in the Face

Don't laugh too hard at my fingers. It seems that I may have forgotten a few things from my ballet teacher, but EVERY time I look at this picture I can't help but laugh.


Jamie and I spent the weekend it California. It was a much needed break from things going on in life that just seemed too much to handle at the time.


Going to California was just the thing I needed to let go of all the hurt and pain that I have been feeling about my endometriosis. I was able to feel my Heavenly Father's love through the beautiful Earth He has given us. I felt like He knew me and knew my pain and that is what I needed.

As I was doing my laundry today I received an email from someone who I will keep anonymous that brought back my hurt. I want to share with you part of the letter to help people out there reading this blog what we women of endometriosis deal with. The context is me saying I needed to take this trip to California to take a break from the disease that now controls my life.

"Please consider next time you say you have “a disease that controls your life,” think of my sister and those millions of others that truly have a life changing disease. You can still have kids. You don’t have to change your life to accommodate doctor visits and treatments. You don’t have to have a special diet. You aren’t going to lose your job because of endometriosis. You are lucky. I am not saying any of this to make you mad or offend you or make you feel like I don’t care about the fact that you do have endometriosis. I am saying it to make you think."


To me this is a PUNCH IN THE FACE!!!!

Dear readers let me clear some things up...

One Endometriosis controls my life in the following ways
- I have pain.
- My pain strikes at any given time
- When the pain is bad enough I can not move for quite some time.
- I have been in the middle of saving a child's life when the pain came on and that was a very critical moment.

Two The doctor does not know if I can have children. There is a strong chance that I can yes, but I will not know until I try. Every period I have lowers the chances of ever having a child.

Three I work nights. So going to the doctor is a struggle because they are only open at certain times. If I do not get my pain under control with birth control I will be getting a monthly shot which will put me in to Menopause.

Four I do have a diet. GLUTEN FREE!!! oh and with that no sugar. No Caffeine. No Milk products (which includes my fav ICE CREAM.) No Red Meat.

Five I have missed days of work because I am in so much pain. I'm sure my team doesn't appreciate it when I don't show up for work. Especially when we run short staffed almost every night.

Six Sure I'm lucky that I am not dying, but I live with pain every day and there is no CURE!!! Not even the treatments take the pain away or the endo away. Surgery doesn't fix everything. Oh and if by the grace of God I do have a daughter the chances of her going through the same things I am is GREAT!

I once again encourage everyone to go and read about endometriosis and learn the facts before saying something that will hurt someone.